JANUARY 2007

most significant stuff that happened this month should be the bonus and pay increment i have received. but i am sorry to say that i was not very excited. i guess it is due to the money being in short transist as the bulk of it will be made out to return whatever i have owed. but i know that i should not be ungrateful, in fact i should celebrate that my situation is much improved and i should have gratitude for the good things that come into my life. so, yes, thank you.

secondly, i guess as my work pace slowed down a little, i have a bit of free time and with it, i think about my dad. which made me terribly sad. that day i visited my aunt at the hospital and walked past the cafe that i spent several afternoons with dad there, eating his favourite dessert boh-boh hitam. it pained me so much that i cried my way home on the mrt. mark said that i should not use that route, meaning that it could be better if i dont remind myself of the place. but i feel that the sooner i deal with it, the better. anyway, i realised now why i want to be away this CNY as i think i cannot handle not having dad around. too much of a contrast. it took me several family gatherings to come to term with it. the first few family gatherings was hard for me. but i know i will eventually learn to handle.

nothing much from me, except the nitty gritty things like pondering over whether to cut hair or not. desmond is always great but always layer my hair so much that it is difficult to grow back to the same length and when it is long enough, i get bored with the hair and ponder about cutting. so it is same mental routine every 3 to 6 months. is it just me or is it a girly stuff?

oh and yes,, this Korean drama-- "不良家族" Translate as "indecent family". supposedly a comedy but there are so many heart warming lessons to learn from it. the moral of the story is to have "understanding" -- understading for each other and to know that people behave "badly" not because they are bad but because they have issues that are not resolved and they are hurt. hence we should always be aware of it and not judge them by their behaviour. eg: in the show, this gangster is well, a gangster and always threaten people by asking them to dig a grave and threaten to bury them alive. this gangster was abandoned when he was 5 at a public park... and the only family he knew was the street gangster-head 老大 who has taken him in hence his trait as a gangster. but he is not bad at heart. blah blah blah. the show unraveled different issues that each of the family has and at the end of the day, it is with love and understanding that we can live in harmony.